Saturday, October 25, 2008

I've Started

I've started the horrendously frustrating/exhilarating task of writing some kind of book. I'm struggling with it right now, I mean I'm happy with it, I just haven't found that place yet to really get it where I want to be, it's too shallow right at this moment. But right now I think that is the way it's going to be, that it's like painting, start with the lighter shades and go darker. I know there are darker shades, they are definitely there every time I see a new couple on Facebook. Then I have to go through why I got here and that those feelings are not that simple. There are those who are sort of aware of what it's about, it's sort of getting fleshed out are time goes on. I know that even if it never gets published it's good therapy. It's a good way to suss out my feelings on certain things and channel my post engagement frustration into somewhere other then my mouth. I don't want to become a wedding/engagement hater. I don't want to be that person, but it seems to slip out here and there in the wake of a new round of weddings and engagements. I am determined not to become bitter, but to rather learn from this experience and take from it what I can and leave behind all the hopes and dreams that where tied to that experience, that person, that space in time.

I leave you with some of my writing music.



R.E.II said...

Thanks for the music. Well done!
btw: Ill be happy for our stories to interlock, at least not the bits you would like to publish?
Stay well

Jenn said...

I would love to be able to publish at some point right now I'm still trying to figure out where to go with my ideas. I think I have to step away from the computer for a while and write out my ideas in a better framework, and then go from there.

R.E.II said...

all the best

Natalie said...

I am glad you have started to write, I think it will be good for you.